It is pretty simple, nothing makes me happier than this little guy:

I never knew a love like this could exist.  The thought of my baby, makes my heart ache with happiness and eyes swell with the purest of happy tears.

He is simply amazing.  During today’s photo-shoot we listened to the Lumineers and played “it” except my Evan wasn’t trying to escape me, he was trying to escape my camera:

 

But he did allow me to catch some sweet moments – but not too many smiles (probably my fault for taking pictures before his morning nap was over)

 

This month has, of course, flown by.  He is just as charming as ever and perfecting his crawling (or floor surfing… at the speed of light), standing strong, learning to fall to the floor (shits his butt back when standing and throws his arms out), babbling!  So good “Ma—–Ma!” and “Paaaaaaaaaaa – pa!” 😀 – Something I’m totally still loving is that he always wants “Ma………Ma!”

 

Dear Evan:

You will never understand how much I love you.  It is truly impossible because I cannot even wrap my head around it.  You complete everything.  You are just the sweetest boy.  You love giving kisses and still will indulge us with cuddle time (it short bursts, my little busy body)… You are brilliant, naturally 😉

You LOVE bathtime!  It is so cute and yesterday we sat you in the big tub. *Cries* You are just growing so incredibly fast, I feel like I cannot spend enough time with you.

This month you really have started to talk, Ma-ma, Pa-pa, ba-ba, and ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my can you scream!  Right now I’m blogging while you hang with daddy and I can hear you sprinting for the office door – [and just like that you stole me away until I put you down for your morning nap – you are in bed with daddy and I’m totally going to sneak in pictures after this post].

You really don’t like having your diaper changed lately, you sob, actually.  It breaks my heart everytime because you get real tears and they roll down the sides of your face 😦

You also are teething once again, a top tooth has broken through on the right side and so grandma buys you new teething rings every day – she is the best.  But night time isn’t so fun.  You also had your first cold this past month!  IT was HORRIBLE, it was a cold plus fever plus teething… you were miserable.  I remember crying while holding you because all you wanted to do was be in my arms and as I held your feverish body my whole being ached for you.  I wanted to take it all away – I looked for comfort from my mom and Auntie Nicole – I’m lucky I have them.

You eat like a champ.  Momma cooks most of your food for you some favorite combos?  Zucchini banana, apple broccoli and spinach peas and pears!  My baby will eat greens if I mix them with a little fruit.  ❤  My little mighty man.

Can you please stop growing so fast?  Every day I feel like I want to freeze time.  I want to soak everything in.  My heart swells with joy at your milestones but it also aches because I know that this won’t last forever.  I know you will always be my baby, but as you grow and explore the world I know you will consider yourself a big boy.  You are going to be so independent… you are well on your way.  Each day, I see it in minute baby steps of independence the way you concentrate about the outcomes of things or gently feel your way to make steps (walking is so right around the corner) and all I want to do is hold you close and keep you from those bumps I know will happen along the way… The face plants when you crawl a little too fast or bumping your head into the wall trying to climb it… I want to shield you from all the pains in life.  I know this is impossible, but something you will never grasp (until you are maybe a parent yourself someday) is how much I love you.  There is simply no way.  I would absolutely walk to the ends of the earth for you.

I love you, so much that I cannot comprehend it…

Happy 9 months my little love, you have been out in this world just as long as you grew inside momma, it is amazing how I can’t remember life without you.

Love,

Mommy