Today started early, really early. I couldn’t sleep. Not sure why. Or is it obvious? You can tell me. Last night we went for a late walk (after sanding the deck, staining the deck, and raking leaves… oh and cleaning) and I had some SERIOUS contractions on my way back home. Like the types that stop you from walking, make you almost double over in pain. I tried to play them off because I was with my husband, dog and pushing my son in the BOB (thank GOD for the BOB..) and I’m tired of being the wife that is “oh, ouch” and Hector being the husband like “everything ok?” then nothing happens – and I feel like a fool. Any who – I’m the type of walker that hates how slow my husband walks. I go, and I go quickly. He never walks fast enough, yet last night he ended up pretty far ahead of me with Oso as my contractions slowed me down…big time. I didn’t want to jinx it but I really thought I might be going into labor.
We get home, Hector notices my discomfort and asks me if he thinks this is it. I told him “this will likely stop.” Naturally, I relaxed sat down and – nothing. *sigh*
I know this is the story of many pregnant women, but still – not fun. So I laid in bed with lots of tightening but no pain and couldn’t help but think how our lives were going to change… AGAIN. It sorta freaked me out, so then I prayed. I just prayed for sleep, rest. I know I won’t be getting much soon but all I could focus on last night was Hector’s snoring and my discomfort. So as this blog started… My Tuesday – started early.
Luckily, I had a doctor’s appointment today. I try not to get too worked up for appointments because I remember my disappointment when I would get “checked” with Evan. I remember hearing “still closed” and “prepare yourself for induction.” Even though my due date is tomorrow, so I’ve made it all the way, I don’t see this baby going too far past his due date and thankfully my doctor agrees. We walked (yes walked, I’m still not quite at waddle) into the appointment light hearted and not expecting too much. But!!! I’m 3cm dilated! It is almost surreal, this pregnancy is just so much different than Evan’s. He really thinks I’ll have a baby in my arms by Halloween 🙂 – I knew stuff was happening last week but again each day, heck.. each hour is different with this one. I’m not sure what I like better – the nothing, or the something. I guess you just want baby at this point.
Another thing that happened today? The flu shot. Oh man my arm hurts. It feels like I did a really bad tricep workout, like bad form that messed up a muscle that shouldn’t be hurt. I also feel super sleepy and gross. IDK. I planned on another crazy active day but it was actually a very quiet day. Most of the day was sitting around, just catching up with with a dear friend and her sweet baby girl and my uber cuddly Evan (I. Love. It.) – he is such a little sweetie. There was coffee and girl time and chatting about motherhood, the good the bad and the ugly. I’m so blessed by the people I’m surrounded by. All my bests checked in on me today – I love them. I’m just so lucky. I’ve also been just cuddling and loving my no-so-little dude (who fell asleep while cuddled up next to me today):
So yes, random post – but I wanted to get it out there. How I feel, my random, tired thoughts.. my really restful day with pizza and water lots and lots of water (am I craving water? Ice water? hm…). Oh and a trip to the GAP to get something for the newbs that naturally ended up being several new pairs of awesome pjs for Evan and an awesome trick or treat shirt that I think he will wear every day between now and Halloween – all sales, all additional 50% off. *insert hear eyes emogji* I’m feeling so blessed lately – like things are coming together. This pregnancy has been EXTREMELY challenging, but life is what you make of it and even if the journey has rocky moments, at some point all the obstacles start to make sense and just prepare you to be a better person. A better mother, wife, listener, friend. Thanks be to God who has and always will be in my corner. He really has blessed us lately.