All Ready!

Well, I’ve been in crazy nesting mode.  I’m sorta driving Hector nuts, ah well.  Something is finally [almost] complete!!  The NURSERY!  Evan spent a lot of time in our room, but I feel like setting up his nursery was super important.  A way to feel “ready” for baby, I’m lucky I was able to put together another nursery for our new addition.  I’m still holding out hope I’ll find a great new glider, but my budget has been tightened so it may not happen. Never the less, here it goes!  We saved a lot of money by reusing Evan’s gently used crib that just has some teeth marks where the blankets are draped.  The frames above baby #MAV’s crib were a STEAL at target for 13.48 each (originally 45ish bucks!!).  Not sure if we will keep his initials in them just yet, it was a quick easy CHEAP! idea ;-)

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Something else, we re-used?

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Evan’s mobile. He now has some paper airplanes hanging in his room and we plan on getting him some old school “hair planes” to hang where this once was – Evan is into all things moving (trucks, TRAINS, air planes, and helicopters) – so we are just going to get some vintage looking things to help complete his “bigger” boy room.  I love the simplicity and uniqueness of this mobile so I’m glad it is making another very important appearance.

Next up, nursing station:

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a nice lamp (lying around the house), nursing table (nipple cream, breast pads and likely a granola bar or two in the not too far future are hidden in the drawers of the table) and a earthy candle I can already see lil guy cuddled in my arms, Evan at my feet and my kindle neglected beside me ;-)

Some other small details:

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This hanging basket from target.  Filled with a couple books, wubbanubs, burpy bibs and my beloved Nosfrida.  The one thing we did splurge on early on was a new dresser for the bebe, good thing we got it to before our household “halt” if you will:

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It’s a super great piece that will last forever that has a lovely gouge in it from getting it home – made us realize we def need an SUV.  Int eh basket are some newborn diapers and wipes and the only thing missing is the changing pad and a diaper warmer (Evan is currently using as a piggie bank, lol).  On his shelf is a cute tin I grabbed from Michaels filled with extra pacficers and baby mittens :) the drawers are full of clothes.  We are all ready for you!

Now if my little love would just get here quickly!  I’m getting anxious!

How cute is big bro to be E?

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Alright – lots to do.  Hope you enjoyed my mostly picture update.

Halloween-y Stuff

Today has been busy, and in the best way possible.  We’ve been blissfully busy this week which was filled with some vacation time, nesting time and more nesting time.  Hector has had some wonderful feedback on some life changing things so thank you GOD.  Some of our life will be back to normal sooner rather than later.  I can finally breathe (well sorta, I’m a bit crowded in the lungs area). It is amazing what faith does to you, how family and friends comfort and encourage and send positive vibes your way.  They make such a difference.

We love Halloween in this house.  I love to decorate, I love to carve pumpkins, toast pumpkin seeds and spend time with friends and family in fun costumes.  Although this year will be low key, or CRAZY because of a new baby. I’ve done a bit o’decorating and some thrifty Michaels shopping for our annual pumpkin carving/painting weekend… 60% off fallish sprigs gave me this fantastic inspiration:

Before:

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After:

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It now looks lovely on our front door:

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All for a whopping SIX dollars!  Those pretty colorful leaves are leftovers from a beautiful bouquet my best friend sent me, I’m so happy they get to happy greet people at my front door for the season.  Like I said, I’ve been nesting like crazy, I want just everything to be perfect everywhere and today – it was!  We had our nephew and fam over for some pumpkin decorating:

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I’d say they were happily entertained for a whole 10 minutes, then chased each other around the house for several hours.  Evan crashed in his high chair about 30 minutes after Jay and fam left and I’m pretty sure he is out for the night <3 – He had such a great time, it is awesome watching them together, Evan is 2, Jay is 6 and they play really well together makes me super happy that my little dudes will soon be able to entertain eachother and never be lonely <3

Here’s our damage for the day:

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and:

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I’m off to clean out another closet, I’m purging and detoxifying – I’m also getting braxton hicks like crazy (and heartburn!!! omg. never ever ever have I had anything like this before)!  Maybe baby will be here before 10/29 <3

 

 

Trials &Faith

It has been a long while since I have sat down and typed anything.  Life has been… trying.  They say when it rains, it pours, and I don’t think I’ve ever felt that to be more true – until lately – this year really, to be specific.  It has been a tough year for my family.  Filled with some serious trials, the ones where you can’t breathe, freak out – cry, are numb… etc. My grandmother passed away in July and I still cannot bring myself to talk about it, she was one of the most influential people in my life and I still feel a major void whenever she crosses my mind, which is quiet often.  When I thought things couldn’t be more difficult to handle, of course, circumstances come around and remind me – oh they definitely can get worse.  Even still, with everything going on – I’m lucky, because at least my family is healthy & my Evan couldn’t be more happy.  Not sure how I’d make it without this little kid, he will never know the strength he gives me:

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As you well know, I’m also very pregnant.  This pregnancy has been difficult for me.  I’ve never been good with body changes and this one, has really really given me a run for my mental money.  Although I love my little who seems to be very happy and healthy bouncing around in there – this pregnancy has really wiped me out.  I definitely feel more blue than with Evan and a lot of it has to do with the never ending exhaustion which I’m sure is a combination of the things going on in my life, long days, a two year old, a major injury around 17 weeks that really put me on the sidelines and just stretching not as good as the first time.  My thighs are wider, my hips are wider and I have stretch marks – I still don’t think I’ll ever be ok with.  I’m being honest here – these things really bother me and so I just want to write that pregnancy isn’t always rainbows and sunshine -but newborns, children, their innocence – I know when he is here in my arms, I will feel it was all worth it.  People can tell me I look great, that I don’t look almost 9.5 months pregnant but I FEEL all of it, every bit of 9.5 months, I feel.  My ribs hurt like no other, I get quiet a few contractions a day, my energy levels are non-existent and I’m getting anxious about meeting my little man.

With all the negative out of the way – I’m going to discuss some of the things that are making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. My family has been so crazy amazing, it isn’t even funny.  My mom, so supportive – I can’t imagine getting through these things without her.  My friends, who are all going through their own major life changes – so thoughtful and supportive.  Not sure they will ever know how much their text messages, little check ins, FLOWERS, and positive vibes and prayers really uplift me – my life is rich because of the people that surround me… My relationships are what keep me going.  My faith in God.  God has never let us down, everyone goes through trials in life, if you have faith – you shouldn’t fear and that’s a prayer I send up each day – God I do not fear, you will provide.  FALL – the cool weather is refreshing, layers make me happy and my newest PUMPKIN will be arriving soon!!

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With everything that is going on, I’ve had to let a few things that are VERY IMPORTANT to me, go.  One specifically that hit me hard, though not too many people understood “it’s just xxx” – not a big deal… Well, to me it was, to me it meant a lot and to me it was something that I cried a lot over, because it was important to me.  Somehow, it is happening anyway, a semi-stranger, doing something for our family that means more to me than she will ever know.  I don’t even know how to share my gratitude, I just hope she knows how much it means to me.  Even with some clouds, our future is bright.

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Trials & faith.  It is the thing lives are made of.

 

Where we are…

I’m sitting in my beautiful family room, HGTV providing background noise.  My “Be Peaceful” candle providing the most wonderful calming smell:

 

 

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Evan is snoozing peacefully, after a day of running around with his crazy runny nose – poor guy has a cold.

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Today was a beautiful day.  It started early after a rough night of sleep (I am SUCH a light sleeper).  Evan was just given a “big boy” bed and he kept slamming his head into the wall as he moved around on his new mattress. Each time he stayed asleep but I was alert as ever wondering it he would start crying at any moment. There is SO MUCH going on around us.  Besides prepping for a new baby, we have work stuff going on, friend stuff going on, family stuff going on and home stuff going on.  It is like so crazy.  But as I wait for my teapot to start whistling for my calm tea, I am just crazy grateful.  I’m grateful for my mom who listens to me complain, grateful for my friends who understand me without me needing to explain anything, grateful for the happy healthy baby boy bouncing in my belly, grateful for my husband who still loves me even when I’m a train heading to crazy town. 

Not everything is always sunshine and daisies and we definitely have our share of obstacles we are traversing but we are making it.  Together. 

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I’m feeling the need to nest like NO OTHER.  I want to clean, organize and make everything perfect for Evan, baby, Hector and I (& O).  I just need to find the energy to get things where I want them.  We are hands deep in deciding what other gear we need and I finally (with the help of momma above) picked out our new stroller.  When Evan was born I picked out two strollers Peg Perego’s P3 (I figured would be our light weight stroller and matched my carseat) and the BOB.  I cannot say enough about the BOB I ABSOLUTELY love the BOB, we still use it almost daily – Evan is great in strollers. We used the BOB with him within a few weeks of him being born because we picked up the carseat adapter.  The P3, left something to be desired.  It was expensive and I think I used it once.  It is now with my MIL who watches Evan and I don’t miss it. I just wasn’t feeling it.  It was a great lesson in try it before you buy it.  When we found out we were having another baby I immediately started day dreaming about an UppaBaby stroller it was the stroller I wish I would have bought after I tried and used the P3 and I was going to try to talk Hector into it ;-)  – well this time, I decided before spending 730 *gasp* dollars on a stroller, I wanted to TRY it first.  

OH MY GOODNESS am I GLAD I DID.  My mom, Evan and I went to Buy Buy Baby and tried out the UppaBaby Vista and the Britax B-Ready.  They have very similar features, allow for a kickboard, and rumble seat and have all the configurations I desired. After having Evan play many different roles (I should rent him out as a stroller tester, he was amazing) – my mom and I had a WITHOUT A DOUBT winner:

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the B-Ready was hands down my favorite of the two and for the price, I feel like it is a steal.  Literally the only things I liked better about the uppababy was the black frame and the prettier kickboard – clearly not enough to choose it over the B-Ready that handled better and felt more solid.  I will never again make a big purchase like this without testing ;-) and would recommend big-time to new momma’s who are as crazy about online shopping as I am – sometimes you just need to get to the store and move things around. We’ve already been using this lovely stroller I can’t say I like it more than the BOB, because I don’t but I’m excitied to have a stroller with the versitlity of this one.  We will be buying a couple add on-s first up is the careseat adapter.

One purchase down and only a few more to go.  

Things are piling up around here – and I’m getting anxious to do a load of baby laundry. I have several new boxes of my favorite baby swaddlers that I want to unwrap and get washed. My final box is on the way because I found it at a STEAL of a price ~32 BUCKS!! Hector may kill me because we still have a ton from Evan but I keep reminding him – baby needs baby’s own stuff too & Evan doesn’t like to share yet and will likely think all these new swaddlers are his.  I do almost own the entire bamboo collection hahaha but am IN LOVE with this organic pattern I bought, it is foxy ;-) and I’m eyeing the new circus collection IT’S FUN! But really babe, promise I’m done for now – don’t forget I use them as nursing covers, stroller and carseat covers, to wipe up spit up and layer a bunch together for time in the park… They really are my most used baby item and I’ve blogged about my love for them for two consecutive Thanksgivings!! (haha crazy just realized this) here and here.

I’m still looking for the perfect going home outfit and dresser, and rug and wall decor – so I still have a lot to do and <8 weeks until my due date!  Yikes!

So that is – where we are <3 Sicky is stirring tea is burning… O is wanting a walk so now I get to choose between the two strollers (I’ll ask evan!) and take the boys for a walk. Adios!  Happy Saturday!!

 

Not the Biggest Fan

Well, as my second trimester draws to a close, I thought I’d write a bit about the past 27ish (21 of which I knew I was prego..)weeks.

My. Goodness.  I feel like this pregnancy really is almost the polar opposite of how I felt during my other one.  Sure I was still obsessed with not getting stretch-marks and have had some nervous moments… Last night I tried to remember life with a newbie and was having trouble falling asleep thinking about how I would handle it.  How will Evan be?  He will be in his big boy bed, will I have two babies trying to cuddle at night?  How did I handle burping?  Did I nurse and burp him in the middle of the night.. I don’t remember!? How could I forget these things?  I wonder if Hector would be just as helpful and wonderful as he was the first time.  Does he even know HOW grateful I was for his love and support?  Needless to say I just couldn’t turn my brain off.  Sure the questions weren’t the same but I did have several nervous nights during my first pregnancy… I also think this is totally normal.  So last night I looked at my peacefully snoring husband, took a deep breath and said to myself “Just like you did last time, one day at a time.”  

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How my pregnancy is different with baby 2:

1.  My body.  Hands down, has stretched in different ways.  Overall I’ve gained LESS (from my starting weight, albeit was higher than my starting weight with Evan, I had just done marathon training… and wasn’t as focused on weight training as I was this time around) than with Evan so far, yet things do not fit like they did with Evan.  My hips/thighs have absolutely widened, and they seem fuller even though Hector swears they aren’t (he lies.. haha).  Like Evan, most people are surprised when I tell them how far along I am, yet I feel much larger this time but I think that has to do with what my hips/thighs are doing.  With this, I’ve actually bought a few maternity items this time around which I didn’t do with Evan either.  With Evan I literally was wearing my clothes to work at 40 weeks, likely why I felt so much smaller with him.  This time, not so much.  One thing I must say is maternity wear is so much more comfortable.  *sigh* I don’t think I’ll ever be good at body changes.   This is something I struggle with about 80% of my day and REALLY need to stop.

2. Energy.  I can’t remember exactly how energy worked last time but I am really really really tired… Pretty much all the time.  I don’t know if because I didn’t have a two year old to run around after or a whole house to take care of or WHAT but I’m tired all the time (did I say that yet?).  Doesn’t matter how much sleep I get, what I eat, if I workout… Nothing helps.  I literally get to a point where I’m like “I just need to sit down.”  Last night we were out for a walk and I had to stop at my moms 2/3rds way though for a rest haha.  Could have been because it was 8:30 already but still.  I. am. tired.  

3.  Workouts.  After my major ankle issue, it was like this for about 4 weeks and extremely painful for another few and is actually still healing:

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I never though I’d get back to solid workouts I felt good about.  This injury REALLY REALLY set me back, emotionally and physically.  BUT I HAVE!  I’m actually more active this pregnancy than I was the last one.  My last one I’d do a bit of weights at home and some light workouts but really took it easy, you know go home, jump on your registry watch baby move and go to sleep. :)  Even if my clothes seem to tell me differently.  I just keep trying to remind myself I have to tools to be how I want to be… Just be calm and patient, I am growing a baby.

4.  With Evan, after my disastrous morning sickness first 17ish weeks (I had both times, yay me!) it was over.  I was able to eat super green salads, fresh fruit, and my total clean eats.  This time, I’M STILL SICK!  Ugh, my tummy really just wants toast, something easy on my tummy.  Veggies, are way hit or miss sometimes I’m like “this steamed broccoli tastes amazing” other times, later that day even, I want to GAG looking at it. -_- haha, this is just the way it has been.  Other times, I’m just so overwhelmed with nausea I can’t eat anything at all. So. Strange.  I still buy super clean but I’ve had way more breads/pasta/whole wheat wraps in my diet then as far back as I can remember.  But like with Evan, no real cravings.  

5. Preparing for baby.  By this time with Evan, I’m pretty sure the nursery was pretty much complete and I had a carseat, and all sorts of stuff.  This time, baby is getting spoiled by grandma… and I think my friend Joanna and I are tied on the onesies we have gotten for my baby no-name.  haha.  I do have some thoughts in mind on how I want to do his nursery, super chill and inspiring, but I better get started!

I know I didn’t love being pregnant with Evan.  Don’t get me wrong, I love baby jabs and the warm smiles from people.  I do love when my sister or my mom say that I’m a cute prego, even though I feel anything but… But I’m looking forward to the end.  I’m looking forward to treating myself to a few new pairs of wonder-unders and a cute pair of riding boots.  I look forward to my baby wrapped in the Moby and my sweet Evan hugging my legs.  

What I’m working on:

Better focus.  This very well might be the last time I’m ever pregnant.  IF it is, do I really want to look back and be like “ugh, I was so miserable?” Nope.  That is why I bought another dress for work today and why if I want a piece of chocolate I’ll have it.  It is why tonight I’ll go on a walk with Evan and Oso, and why I’m going to wrap up this post and clean my house.  I’m going to continue to do things that make me happy (clean house = happy camper)… 

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Being thankful.  So far I’ve had a healthy pregnancy.  I need to continue to be focused ON THAT.  I’m lucky, not all pregnancies are this uneventful.  

Happy Sunday!! I hope to be back with some weekly favs <3

 

xoxo

Life, Love, Grow

Hello world.

So much has happened the past few months. Life is  if possible *gasp*even more busy and with all I have to share I’m sure you agree it is just going to become MORE busy.  As I shared in I think my last post, I rolled my ankle prettttttttty good 5/31 and I AM STILL HEALING!  Unreal.  I’m sure, had I gotten a MRI they would find some SERIOUS sprain haha.  I’ve gotten hurt in the past but I swear this recovery has been more brutal than my knee surgery.  A good friend of mine saw my ankle several weeks after I did it and again today and she can STILL see the swelling that annoys me each time I look at my ankle ;-)

Evan is such a toddler, little man.  He is not at all babyish anymore.  Ok, well except for maybe when he sleeps:

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He will be TWO next week!  Exactly a week from tomorrow. As much as I miss baby Evan moments.  Each day, he grows, learns and reminds me to live.  He is such an amazing little man and it is awesome to watch him flourish.  Other things flourishing?

Evan’s birthday party plans:

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My plants (who am I kidding, my WEEDS too ;-) ) :

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My love for my husband:

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*be still my heart*

AND ME!

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Yup.  As much as I wanted to do the coolest post ever reveal.  Here I am today in my 24 week glory ;-)

I still haven’t done a “share with the world” (you know my world,private facebook world) post.  Simply because I want to do something super cute and special.  Who knows,maybe I still will.  But I haven’t documented this pregnancy as much as the last one because I haven’t even publicly shared the news!  Of course friends and family know… hard to hide (especially in the picture above right after a long day of polish food (Thanks Joanna!) and ice cream haha.. what? cheat days after a loved one passes, I swear I’m still a super clean eater 90-95% of the time).  It has probably taken so long for so many reasons all that is going on and I dunno the fact that it has passed thus far at hyper speed even with my day-to-day between raising Evan, working, attempting to work out (foot allowance…) and having a tremendous loss in our family… I’ve been spent!  I will tell you this.  This pregnancy is MUCH different than my last and I hope to speak more on that before this little person *we know the gender… maybe I can do something cool for that?!* joins us around Halloween (Auntie Nicole’s favorite holiday!).  It has been great to share pregnancy woes with my bff who is almost exactly a month a head of me.  She is expecting an early October baby and I’m literally due 10/30 although – and we both share this as well – I have no real belief my baby will show before then.  In fact, I fully expect a November baby whose first holiday will be Thanksgiving.  How appropriate too, because I’m so Thankful.  Thankful for my friends (who have been AMAZINGLY SUPPORTIVE LATELY), my family (seriously… I’d die without them), and my little new growing intimidate under my roof family.  To make Evan a big bro and my husband a second time father?  My heart swells with happiness.

I’ve gotta ton to blog about… I really hope to check in more often.  Now that life is slowly getting back into the swing of things, just in time to get thrown back out.

Love.

Light.

Life.

Grow.

That’s the theme of my life right now.  Off to hit my yoga mat and snuggle with my only child while it is still just him and I (and Oso, who is rattling around downstairs probably getting into trouble…).

 

 

My Weekend – Insert Sadface & Last Weekend In Pictures (5/26)

This weekend was supposed to be really was awesome.  I woke up Saturday morning so happy I thought I could fly.  My husband had told me he was going to get Sunday off (Whaoo!!) and I was all set at 7 a.m. to get my day started with FARMER’S MARKET!  One of my all-time favorite places to go.  It is honestly such an awesome way to start the weekend. Fresh veggies, flowers… the works.  I was especially looking forward to grabbing some herbs and a strawberry plant for Evan’s very own lil garden (a couple pots this year! next year a whole little bed!! If we don’t get to it this year).  I called my mom and was off!  Had a great talk with the hubs and stepped out the front door at 7:30 sharp.

Then BAM! Major accident. I was walking down my front steps with my lulu bag and flip flops and hit an uneven piece of concrete and my loose ligaments in my right ankle gave way!  It was such a scary moment.  I knew immediately that my day was taking a dramatic turn and BOY did it HURT!  I immediately yelled out for Hector in short gasps “Hector. Help. Please hurry.”  It was honestly so terrifying.  Thank God he was home.  As someone who plays sports and has had aches, pains and sprains I knew I needed to get it up and iced as fast as possible.  The pain was so intense I thought I was going to pass out.  I got inside, asked Hector to get me some I ice and give me a phone, I needed to call my mom.  Naturally, I called my mom in tears, likely frightened her and thank God she lives like 3 minutes away because she was there in a flash because within minutes it looked like this:

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A half hour later (with icing and elevating):

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I was over the moon in pain. I never want to go to the hospital with things like this because I knew it wasn’t broken but my mom talked me into it.  I knew the doctor would tell me “It isn’t broken, ice, elevate and take Tylenol” (because I can’t take NSAIDs).  Still around 3’clock because the pain was at an 8 if it wasn’t elevated (and even then the throbbing was awful)… I broke down and went.

To Elmhurst ER we went haha.  They said it wasn’t broken, and to ice, elevate and take Tylenol.  They gave me a fancy aircast and crutches since I really couldn’t put any weight on it whatsoever.  The hardest part of this all was the fact that I had so much planned.  It is tough to watch my weekend fly by when I was literally daydreaming about long walks and sunkissed cheeks and instead I was elevated and icing.  My sweet son had a nice time with Grandma though!!

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I spent my Saturday and Sunday pretty much in bed or on a couch because the minute my foot hit the floor major major pain.

Ah well.  Some weekends just don’t work out the way you planned.  Today it is still painful and turning a lovely shade of purple but I’m hobbling around and hope to be gently hobbling around tomorrow.  As this is my right leg with my crappy knee to begin with the hobbling will likely cause other strange pains so I’m trying to gently stretch in all ways that feel good and aren’t terribly painful.  I’m praying that this heals quickly because my almost two-year-old… as sweet as he is isn’t easy to keep up with on crutches or hobbling.

Here are some pictures of LAST weekend, the weekend I was looking to semi-recreate:

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