Not the Biggest Fan

Well, as my second trimester draws to a close, I thought I’d write a bit about the past 27ish (21 of which I knew I was prego..)weeks.

My. Goodness.  I feel like this pregnancy really is almost the polar opposite of how I felt during my other one.  Sure I was still obsessed with not getting stretch-marks and have had some nervous moments… Last night I tried to remember life with a newbie and was having trouble falling asleep thinking about how I would handle it.  How will Evan be?  He will be in his big boy bed, will I have two babies trying to cuddle at night?  How did I handle burping?  Did I nurse and burp him in the middle of the night.. I don’t remember!? How could I forget these things?  I wonder if Hector would be just as helpful and wonderful as he was the first time.  Does he even know HOW grateful I was for his love and support?  Needless to say I just couldn’t turn my brain off.  Sure the questions weren’t the same but I did have several nervous nights during my first pregnancy… I also think this is totally normal.  So last night I looked at my peacefully snoring husband, took a deep breath and said to myself “Just like you did last time, one day at a time.”  

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How my pregnancy is different with baby 2:

1.  My body.  Hands down, has stretched in different ways.  Overall I’ve gained LESS (from my starting weight, albeit was higher than my starting weight with Evan, I had just done marathon training… and wasn’t as focused on weight training as I was this time around) than with Evan so far, yet things do not fit like they did with Evan.  My hips/thighs have absolutely widened, and they seem fuller even though Hector swears they aren’t (he lies.. haha).  Like Evan, most people are surprised when I tell them how far along I am, yet I feel much larger this time but I think that has to do with what my hips/thighs are doing.  With this, I’ve actually bought a few maternity items this time around which I didn’t do with Evan either.  With Evan I literally was wearing my clothes to work at 40 weeks, likely why I felt so much smaller with him.  This time, not so much.  One thing I must say is maternity wear is so much more comfortable.  *sigh* I don’t think I’ll ever be good at body changes.   This is something I struggle with about 80% of my day and REALLY need to stop.

2. Energy.  I can’t remember exactly how energy worked last time but I am really really really tired… Pretty much all the time.  I don’t know if because I didn’t have a two year old to run around after or a whole house to take care of or WHAT but I’m tired all the time (did I say that yet?).  Doesn’t matter how much sleep I get, what I eat, if I workout… Nothing helps.  I literally get to a point where I’m like “I just need to sit down.”  Last night we were out for a walk and I had to stop at my moms 2/3rds way though for a rest haha.  Could have been because it was 8:30 already but still.  I. am. tired.  

3.  Workouts.  After my major ankle issue, it was like this for about 4 weeks and extremely painful for another few and is actually still healing:

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I never though I’d get back to solid workouts I felt good about.  This injury REALLY REALLY set me back, emotionally and physically.  BUT I HAVE!  I’m actually more active this pregnancy than I was the last one.  My last one I’d do a bit of weights at home and some light workouts but really took it easy, you know go home, jump on your registry watch baby move and go to sleep. :)  Even if my clothes seem to tell me differently.  I just keep trying to remind myself I have to tools to be how I want to be… Just be calm and patient, I am growing a baby.

4.  With Evan, after my disastrous morning sickness first 17ish weeks (I had both times, yay me!) it was over.  I was able to eat super green salads, fresh fruit, and my total clean eats.  This time, I’M STILL SICK!  Ugh, my tummy really just wants toast, something easy on my tummy.  Veggies, are way hit or miss sometimes I’m like “this steamed broccoli tastes amazing” other times, later that day even, I want to GAG looking at it. -_- haha, this is just the way it has been.  Other times, I’m just so overwhelmed with nausea I can’t eat anything at all. So. Strange.  I still buy super clean but I’ve had way more breads/pasta/whole wheat wraps in my diet then as far back as I can remember.  But like with Evan, no real cravings.  

5. Preparing for baby.  By this time with Evan, I’m pretty sure the nursery was pretty much complete and I had a carseat, and all sorts of stuff.  This time, baby is getting spoiled by grandma… and I think my friend Joanna and I are tied on the onesies we have gotten for my baby no-name.  haha.  I do have some thoughts in mind on how I want to do his nursery, super chill and inspiring, but I better get started!

I know I didn’t love being pregnant with Evan.  Don’t get me wrong, I love baby jabs and the warm smiles from people.  I do love when my sister or my mom say that I’m a cute prego, even though I feel anything but… But I’m looking forward to the end.  I’m looking forward to treating myself to a few new pairs of wonder-unders and a cute pair of riding boots.  I look forward to my baby wrapped in the Moby and my sweet Evan hugging my legs.  

What I’m working on:

Better focus.  This very well might be the last time I’m ever pregnant.  IF it is, do I really want to look back and be like “ugh, I was so miserable?” Nope.  That is why I bought another dress for work today and why if I want a piece of chocolate I’ll have it.  It is why tonight I’ll go on a walk with Evan and Oso, and why I’m going to wrap up this post and clean my house.  I’m going to continue to do things that make me happy (clean house = happy camper)… 

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Being thankful.  So far I’ve had a healthy pregnancy.  I need to continue to be focused ON THAT.  I’m lucky, not all pregnancies are this uneventful.  

Happy Sunday!! I hope to be back with some weekly favs <3

 

xoxo

Life, Love, Grow

Hello world.

So much has happened the past few months. Life is  if possible *gasp*even more busy and with all I have to share I’m sure you agree it is just going to become MORE busy.  As I shared in I think my last post, I rolled my ankle prettttttttty good 5/31 and I AM STILL HEALING!  Unreal.  I’m sure, had I gotten a MRI they would find some SERIOUS sprain haha.  I’ve gotten hurt in the past but I swear this recovery has been more brutal than my knee surgery.  A good friend of mine saw my ankle several weeks after I did it and again today and she can STILL see the swelling that annoys me each time I look at my ankle ;-)

Evan is such a toddler, little man.  He is not at all babyish anymore.  Ok, well except for maybe when he sleeps:

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He will be TWO next week!  Exactly a week from tomorrow. As much as I miss baby Evan moments.  Each day, he grows, learns and reminds me to live.  He is such an amazing little man and it is awesome to watch him flourish.  Other things flourishing?

Evan’s birthday party plans:

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My plants (who am I kidding, my WEEDS too ;-) ) :

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My love for my husband:

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*be still my heart*

AND ME!

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Yup.  As much as I wanted to do the coolest post ever reveal.  Here I am today in my 24 week glory ;-)

I still haven’t done a “share with the world” (you know my world,private facebook world) post.  Simply because I want to do something super cute and special.  Who knows,maybe I still will.  But I haven’t documented this pregnancy as much as the last one because I haven’t even publicly shared the news!  Of course friends and family know… hard to hide (especially in the picture above right after a long day of polish food (Thanks Joanna!) and ice cream haha.. what? cheat days after a loved one passes, I swear I’m still a super clean eater 90-95% of the time).  It has probably taken so long for so many reasons all that is going on and I dunno the fact that it has passed thus far at hyper speed even with my day-to-day between raising Evan, working, attempting to work out (foot allowance…) and having a tremendous loss in our family… I’ve been spent!  I will tell you this.  This pregnancy is MUCH different than my last and I hope to speak more on that before this little person *we know the gender… maybe I can do something cool for that?!* joins us around Halloween (Auntie Nicole’s favorite holiday!).  It has been great to share pregnancy woes with my bff who is almost exactly a month a head of me.  She is expecting an early October baby and I’m literally due 10/30 although – and we both share this as well – I have no real belief my baby will show before then.  In fact, I fully expect a November baby whose first holiday will be Thanksgiving.  How appropriate too, because I’m so Thankful.  Thankful for my friends (who have been AMAZINGLY SUPPORTIVE LATELY), my family (seriously… I’d die without them), and my little new growing intimidate under my roof family.  To make Evan a big bro and my husband a second time father?  My heart swells with happiness.

I’ve gotta ton to blog about… I really hope to check in more often.  Now that life is slowly getting back into the swing of things, just in time to get thrown back out.

Love.

Light.

Life.

Grow.

That’s the theme of my life right now.  Off to hit my yoga mat and snuggle with my only child while it is still just him and I (and Oso, who is rattling around downstairs probably getting into trouble…).

 

 

My Weekend – Insert Sadface & Last Weekend In Pictures (5/26)

This weekend was supposed to be really was awesome.  I woke up Saturday morning so happy I thought I could fly.  My husband had told me he was going to get Sunday off (Whaoo!!) and I was all set at 7 a.m. to get my day started with FARMER’S MARKET!  One of my all-time favorite places to go.  It is honestly such an awesome way to start the weekend. Fresh veggies, flowers… the works.  I was especially looking forward to grabbing some herbs and a strawberry plant for Evan’s very own lil garden (a couple pots this year! next year a whole little bed!! If we don’t get to it this year).  I called my mom and was off!  Had a great talk with the hubs and stepped out the front door at 7:30 sharp.

Then BAM! Major accident. I was walking down my front steps with my lulu bag and flip flops and hit an uneven piece of concrete and my loose ligaments in my right ankle gave way!  It was such a scary moment.  I knew immediately that my day was taking a dramatic turn and BOY did it HURT!  I immediately yelled out for Hector in short gasps “Hector. Help. Please hurry.”  It was honestly so terrifying.  Thank God he was home.  As someone who plays sports and has had aches, pains and sprains I knew I needed to get it up and iced as fast as possible.  The pain was so intense I thought I was going to pass out.  I got inside, asked Hector to get me some I ice and give me a phone, I needed to call my mom.  Naturally, I called my mom in tears, likely frightened her and thank God she lives like 3 minutes away because she was there in a flash because within minutes it looked like this:

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A half hour later (with icing and elevating):

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I was over the moon in pain. I never want to go to the hospital with things like this because I knew it wasn’t broken but my mom talked me into it.  I knew the doctor would tell me “It isn’t broken, ice, elevate and take Tylenol” (because I can’t take NSAIDs).  Still around 3’clock because the pain was at an 8 if it wasn’t elevated (and even then the throbbing was awful)… I broke down and went.

To Elmhurst ER we went haha.  They said it wasn’t broken, and to ice, elevate and take Tylenol.  They gave me a fancy aircast and crutches since I really couldn’t put any weight on it whatsoever.  The hardest part of this all was the fact that I had so much planned.  It is tough to watch my weekend fly by when I was literally daydreaming about long walks and sunkissed cheeks and instead I was elevated and icing.  My sweet son had a nice time with Grandma though!!

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I spent my Saturday and Sunday pretty much in bed or on a couch because the minute my foot hit the floor major major pain.

Ah well.  Some weekends just don’t work out the way you planned.  Today it is still painful and turning a lovely shade of purple but I’m hobbling around and hope to be gently hobbling around tomorrow.  As this is my right leg with my crappy knee to begin with the hobbling will likely cause other strange pains so I’m trying to gently stretch in all ways that feel good and aren’t terribly painful.  I’m praying that this heals quickly because my almost two-year-old… as sweet as he is isn’t easy to keep up with on crutches or hobbling.

Here are some pictures of LAST weekend, the weekend I was looking to semi-recreate:

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It is Mommy’s Day!

Two days of blogging in a row.  I must be feeling better!  This morning is absolutely perfect.  I’ve had a hard time sleeping lately so last night I heard a welcomed little rain shower sneak in around 12 a.m. and fell comfortably back to sleep.  I LOVE rainstorms and rain.  Not all the time because I NEED my sunshine, but there is something soothing about the sound of falling rain – had I heard thunder, I would have thought God sent the small storm just for me.

Anyway, I’m an early riser.  I haven’t always been and I love sleep (so I go to bed as early as I can) but I love waking up before the sun and watching the awesome colors in the sky.  Friday morning I woke up way before the sun and it was raining I felt warm and safe in my home but the sound of the falling rain was so peaceful (told you, I love rain).  This morning though, my little sidekick who typically wakes early too withing 15-20 minutes of me being up is still sleeping!  So I went downstairs grabbed a cup of coffee (Nicole! I can drink it again!!!  ;-) ) took the dog out and enjoyed smelling fresh air and taking in the beauty of my yard.

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Hector and I dropped Evan at Grandma Debbie’s yesterday so we could do a few things outside without having to keep an eye on our little guy, he is FAST!  We planted some planters and just enjoyed some time cleaning up some stuff together in our yard.  I also realized I’ve gone a little crazy on the lavender (maybe it isn’t possible, I LOVE LAVENDER) but I have now about 5 different pots with some sort of lavender including this cute pot from Trader Joe’s that is already flowering:

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and took more pictures of our stunning perennials:

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I’m so grateful for what we have, friends, family, a home (with flowers, haha)… Weekends always remind me I am doing exactly what I should be because my life is so filled with love and joy.  Which brings me to today: Mother’s Day.  A day I just like to reflect on what I know:  Motherhood, hands down, is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I should say that I have had a lot of awesome things happen to me, but this definitely takes the cake.  Loving, nurturing and caring for another human being on this level cannot do anything BUT make you a better person.  I’m more efficient and effective, I’m more dedicated (as if that was possible), I weed out the BS because you recognize time is the most precious thing and you do not want to waste it…  NOTHING makes you realize how fast time flies more than a walking time stamp. I do not just manage my life and co-manage Hector’s, I am universe CEO – RESPONSIBLE for another human’s well-being.  It is a full-time job whether you are a stay at home mom, or a working mom we all do it differently.  Each has its own challenges, and I respect every single mother who works to make her child a healthy, loving addition to society.

My mother has been a shining example of everything I want to be to Evan and any future children I may have (:) ) – With that: I LOVE YOU MOM!! You are my rock and my hero.  Until I had Evan, I never understood the depth of your love, it is amazing how our bond has grown now that we share this special title.  I also am proud to be surrounded by my beautiful mommy friends!  Too many to name but I must say:  Joanna!  Happy first Mother’s Day with a baby in your arms, being a mother looks amazing on you and it is a beautiful thing to watch – we love you so much.  Nicole, my other half, happy Mother’s Day with your second little baby happily bouncing in your belly – I’m excited for the upcoming months for so many reasons ;-).  You both are inspiring and I LOVE LOVE LOVE sharing this journey with you.  Jenny, thank you for literally being the person I go though the motions with as our dudes are so close in age, I pray for the day you move closer. Anita!  He’s beautiful!! Happy First Mom’s Day with your little guy!! Jaz, another!! Miggie <3  PS we are like the Boy’s Club right now, all our little gentleman…  To the mom’s in my mommy group <3 sending light and love – watching the support all you wonderful ladies share each day makes me want to hug you all and warms my insides to know just how many amazing moms there are out there.

I hope everyone takes some time to just take in all the beauty around us and has a peaceful moment today.  XOXO

Evan, yesterday, at our favorite spot:

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Weekend Warriors

Yesterday, was quite possibly my favorite day so far this year as far as weather is concerned. It is pretty awesome how the warm breeze and sunshine can instantly make you grateful for all that’s around you.  It was a great way to end the week.  I left work, ran home to my favorite dudes and we had an early Mother’s Day dinner with my Mother in Law and my brother and sister-in-law.  I’ve known these people for such a huge part of my life, it is nice to catch up and chat over food haha.

Before we left the house I was in awe of how quickly our gardens went from not happy to green and flowering so I snapped a few pictures.  Our backyard is turning into the magical wonderland I was dreaming about all winter.  We must have 5 different kinds of Daffodils in our garden.  They are so beautiful AND double what they were last year which leads me to my next big idea…

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I want to be a bigger gardener this year.  Cultivate this hobby, if you will.  We have some plans to create a raised garden to share with Evan the magic of fresh berries, greens, veggies and herbs from our own garden this year.  I think it will be a great learning experience for us all.  We don’t have a large garden but I think we have the perfect super sunlit place to create a fresh garden that we can expand on every year.  We MAY try to tackle this this weekend because my hubby has some time off. yay!!!  There is something therapeutic about being in the garden and I love that with some TLC you can see some amazing results.

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We are getting a lot of work done around the house, or at least getting prices so we can fix some things that we really wanted to improve/replace.  Including a fence to protect Oso and little Evan.  I think it is going to be gorgeous addition to our home and can’t wait for it to go up.  *fingers crossed* we get a better quote from a very high rated place I’ve found.

Owning our home has definitely made us weekend warriors when we are home together.  We are always tackling something home related it seems, but the rewards are great and we are filling our lives with so many memories.  It is a really great time in our lives and I’ve been working towards writing down all the wonderful things that are happening around us because it is easy to let the negative things slide in and take too much of your energy away from what matters:  love, family, health (oh and my garden, haha).  Can’t wait to show you blooming pictures of our magical tree in the backyard!!! It will likely bloom today or tomorrow a perfect Mother’s Day gift you can see the start of the beautiful flowers:

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With that we are off to a doctor’s appointment and maybe brunch.  Followed by shopping… Seems like trips to Home Depot and Menards are a weekly occurrence ;-)

 

 

 

 

Favorite Coffee Cup & Why I Need to Live Somewhere Warm

Anyone have a favorite coffee cup?  I do. I do. I do.  I irrationally love this cup.

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I have two others just like it except the color inside is different and so is the logo on the front of the cup, it has to be the bear (Yukon blend).  It’s the perfect size, perfect texture (matte), great handle… Well made!   I don’t know what it is but when someone else uses my cup I have an inside irrational response of *gasp* “MINE” lol.  Luckily unlike my one and half year old, I don’t scream “Mine Mine” at the person using the cup, but I do practically hug it the next time it is in my hands.

So this morning is a good morning, my computer, Lorde Pandora, and my cup <3

I’ve always been a person who has worked on ways to make myself and the things around me better.  My newest endeavor?  Waking up really early everyday of the week.  My alarm goes off around 4:30 a.m.  problem is, I use the cold as an excuse to cuddle under my covers for the next half hour.  Then when I head to the treadmill it is cold down there!  This weather hates me, and the rest of Chicago.  I literally sit here and day dream about morning runs outside with my early morning companion, Oso:

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I just keep telling myself:  It’s coming. It’s coming.

But, to avoid this crap in the future.  I should just move somewhere warm! :) hehe.

No, on the bright side, I’m crazy blessed and lucky to have the option of running on a tredmill at my gym or in my home.  I just can’t wait until the snow and ice melts so I can run the early morning streets of my neighborhood. (Trust me, Oso can’t wait either!)

Happy Tuesday!

Awesome Wave

Happy Saturday, friends!

What a week this was!  I really am over the cold, snowy environment surrounding me.  Even though I’ve never really been comfortable in a bikini – I’m CRAVING bikini weather.  I seriously sit in my heated yoga classes and pretend it is sunny and warm.  My body is definitely craving some homemade vitamin D and when it is literally below zero degrees out or snowing CONSTANTLY, I’m not getting even a tiny bit of it.  At least my boys have fun with their shovels:

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Like everything in my life, I hit waves.  Waves of lazy periods (well in my book lazy, other people see me go go go), then focused waves of awesome.  Right now, I’m on a awesome wave.  I’ve majorly cleaned up eats and have been focusing on getting my heart rate up in some shape or form at least once a day.  It’s a cycle that I need to have not only for myself but for my family.  I want Evan to have lots of healthy home cooked meals, and I want to experiment more with food.  Something that helps me stay on track is reading.  I load my kindle with books on health and fitness, meditation and yoga – even though some sit unread for days and days because I’m knees deep in some novel or catching up on Mob Wives and Scandal (I know, I know… ) I feel like life is all about balance.  However, when I feed my soul with those books, even though every fiber of my being knows how to eat and live well, it reminds me to keep on track. When I eat clean and sweat I’m happier much happier, and isn’t that what life is about?  That said, I’m really enjoying Cameron Diaz’s The Body Book right now.  It is an easy, lighthearted read that I think would actually be really great for a teenager or someone just getting into a clean healthy lifestyle it is just presented in a way that is not overwhelming and is packed with info (although she uses soy as an example of something to switch out for milk, I’m not a soy fan at all).  When I finish up the book I’d like to do a review ;-) – Something that I live by is eating with color.  LOTS of color.  Vibrant color.  No iceberg lettuce, give me the super green kale and spinach and crispy romaine please!  I mean not only are these so good for you but they are so pretty *insert heart eyes*:

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My mom recently bought a vitamix.  I’ve talked about it before and I’ll talk about it again:  I want one so bad! I have a high powered blender and like the reviews here I’m not a fan.  It is bigger and louder than my mom’s shiny new vitamix and more importantly it does not work as well. So I’m saving for my own.  I know they are pricey but I’ve only heard awesome reviews from the basic to the fancy.  Plus, Hector is sick of seeing lulu bags at the doorstep (not that they would ever go away forever, just maybe a little less frequent).

Are you hitting winter slum?  Are you busting through?  I went shopping today at target and they had GARDEN stuff out!  I’m ready to feed the need to get my hands in the dirt and do some gardening and RUN OUTSIDE!!!  So stoked for this.

Off to cuddle with the napping baby, followed by a run on the dreadmill treadmill;)

 

 

Random Thursday Thoughts

Thursdays.

The day before Friday.  One of the more naturally productive days of the week for me.  I get a sudden burst of energy, and feel like I can take on more things.  Am I the only one?

Also, weather has been cray!  Today I woke up to Thunder, which means rain, which means WARM!  It also means I’m going to have to order a pair of Hunters or something as I’m ruining my riding boots, yo.

Obsessed with my essential oils still:

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Yesterday I had a hard day at work, got home super late, missed yoga and the gym *sad violin* but came home to a new shaker bottle, score! And that awesome manifesto bag that I have heart eyes for and Hector glares at hehe.  Scored an awesome deal on the We Made Too Much Page ;-)

On that note, anyone else tell friends/fam/hubs “it was on SALE! I just had to have it?”  lol  Hector hears this far too often with anything that is workout related.  Next up, snow pants,and ski gear (hat, gloves, matching jacket)!

Why snowpants and more at the *hopefully* end of winter?  Because I want to go skiing for the first time in my life.  Anyone been to devil’s head? There is a Groupon.  Yep never ever hit the slopes.

Finally, I need a vacation.  Somewhere tropical.  I need a plan.

One more thing.  Have a wonderful day. Breathe, eat something to feed your soul and body (add avacado *bliss*), take a yoga/Pilates class and treat yourself to at least 5 minutes of meditation.

Namaste Friends off to Alexander the sh*t out of my day. :-)

Eating, my journey.

Boom. Week from the crazy life, has hit the weekend.  There are so many things I want to blog about.  New favs, hitting the gym, changing routines, events, family… But time isn’t always my friend and before I know it I’m like HUH it is Feb. what?!  Well, I know it is winter time, and actually I’m over it, yet Chicago just keeps slapping us with, “WAKE up friends, snow, and lots of below zero days… you can handle it… You are Chicagoians”

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Anywho, one thing I want to discuss is eating and things we are loving right now and my journey with eating.  Several years ago I took a nutrition class.  It changed my life.  Had I taken this class early in my college experience and not as a final prerec, I honestly would have likely become a dietitian, personal trainer and worked on opening a fitness/heath/Mind Body wellness center.  Who knows maybe I still will!  Possibilities in life are endless if you work hard and reach out and grab them.  When I took the class I immediately jumped on the health food train.  I was all about eating things good for my body and my body thanked me!  I felt good, dropped weight (about 30lbs), kept it off, and started training hard.   Knowledge is power and even though the media is very health centered (not always in the best ways…) it can be a very overwhelming and a major information overload.  Different things work for different people, but I do not think you can ever go wrong with drinking TONS of water, getting in green tea, and eating clean.  Those are my simple rules.  Eat clean, drink water and sweat as often as you can.

Even though I ate clean, I was also a crazy calorie counter.  When I say crazy, I mean it.  My whole life was encompassed by counting my calories and obsessing about food.  This clearly was not mentally healthy.  I looked great, and felt great physically but I had a lot of brain fights:

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Then I got prego!

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Being pregnant (after lots of weeks not being able to eat ANYTHING) made me throw out calorie counting and just focus on healthy eats.  100% I contribute this to a healthy, mostly happy pregnancy.  I gained 23lbs and felt great and never counted a calorie.  I had fat days, days when I was like this is the worst thing on the planet…  Days where I was so over it but when I look back I had no aches and pains that come with gaining too much weight (I also have a great build for carrying btw, small frames I’m sure are diff, but this about MY journey).  When I was done being prego, I started breastfeeding and once again, told myself I would NOT count calories.  This was so much easier said then done.  Even though the scale said I didn’t have much to loose, and everyone told me I looked great… I did not feel great.  I felt soft and smushy even though I worked out throughout my pregnancy.  The calorie demons were sneaking in, but I fought them as best I could because I knew  I couldn’t provide nutrition for my little guy if I restricted my calorie intake and so started our six months of exclusive breastfeeding and zero calorie counting journey.  After he was 6 months, and I decided to keep up the relationship but also knew he was  getting other forms of nutrition, the thought of calorie counting crossed my mind once again but I decided not to and this time it wasn’t as hard of a decision.  I was working out, my clothes fit and I stayed away from the mental things that would force me to want to calorie count, mainly the scale.  That scale, I tell you… I think it hurts more then it helps on a weightloss journey but that is a story for another blog.  That six months helped me realize how much I respected my body.  It gave me my perfect healthy baby and recovered beautifully.  Over my pregnant/new mom year I finally gained a respect for not only being healthy physically but mentally. I respected my body more for all it had done and I need to treat my brain with the same respect.  I want to bring up my new family with a healthy relationship with food because as much as I wanted to deny it for so long, I didn’t have a healthy perspective when it came to food.  Six weeks post baby, right before the doctor’s appointment:

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Finally a year and a half later, I can tell you I don’t count calories.  I still look at labels and calories are visible, but because I eat clean, most of my daily eats DO NOT have a nutrition label.  They are what they are: apples, eggs, greens…  Physically speaking, once again, I feel better when I eat right.  I have cheat days and I eat mayo.  I have crazy heath days and take vitamins.  I keep it simple, don’t beat myself up when I have a French fry or a slice of French bread.  But I do always prefer the whole grains, they fill you and keep you going.  Part of my food journey is experimenting with getting in as much fresh produce as I can. With that said, Hector and I have jumped on the juicing/smoothie bandwagon again.  My father was always into juicing and I was always into smoothies.  My dad likely bought the 1st Jucieman machine ever made and worked a few to machine heaven.   We are not a juice family in the sense of apple juice or Capri sun or any of that crap.  Never have been, I will not buy it and Evan will never get it from my hands but I will offer him carrot and beet juice or his favorite green drink: kale, apple, spinach, pineapple, celery, and lemon.

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With everything in life… eating is a journey and I’m finally at a good place with my habits.  My body journey is also always evolving but I make sure to get in yoga, weights and cardio. Even if weight lifting these days is sometimes just tossing around my 27lb baby.

Happy Saturday!  Off to prep for a black tie event tonight and wrap some special birthday gifts for a super special little man in my life. EEK! need a card!!

Love,

Jen

xo

Little Man Update – 1.5 Years *GASP*

My how time flies.  I know I say that every time I blog, but NOTHING could be more true.  Honestly before I know it WEEKS have gone by.

When Evan was first born we would count his weeks “Oh he is 5 weeks old” that turned into months “He is 4.5 months” which has now turned to half years “He is one and a half” *sobs*

He has grown so much and continues to blow me away with his knowledge.  He is full on bilingual.  He knows more Spanish and can go back and forth better then Hector can :)  It blows me away!  Typically we ask “More?” and he will say “mas, si” haha or we will say “Say thank you” and he will say “gracias” yesterday he did another phrase and I remember being so blown away because I just am so proud.   I’ve of course forgotten it, but will have to wrack my brain because it was a good one!!  He knows his first swear word in Spanish and I laugh so hard when he says it that I’m sure he will continue to say it more and more. Evan sings the birthday song, old McDonald, and takes stabs at everything else.  He knows all his objects, hats, socks, food, water (agua), toys, car, ipad, tv, shoes, boots (yep knows the difference), bed, bath, oso…. etc really the list is endless.  He knows people!  Points and everything Colie, Gamma (or Debbie!), Abue, Hector, Daddie, Josh (Tio, Tio, Tio), Naci (Nancy), JOE!, Joey, and of course Mama… haha <3  He is perfection.  He speaks in phrases, says everything in context and is just amazing.  Really how did I get so lucky?

As much as I loved squishy baby phase, I must say this independent toddler phase is a blast.  He is just so curious and funny and I love watching his personality.  I honestly just stare at him sometimes as if I cannot believe he is real, I cannot imagine my life without him and there is nowhere I’d rather be then with him.  I love how he laughs, and how boyish he is.  He is a little dare devil!  I want to soak up as much of it as I can! He makes me so happy, and proud (did I say that already?).

We had his 18 month checkup and it of course went very well (he needs a haircut, I know but I can’t bring myself to do it):

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27lbs 1oz (90th percentile for weight) 34.5 inches tall (98th percentile for height) – He is perfectly proportioned but definitely a big guy, and very strong.

Must be all the green drinks ;-)

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He is a great eater – not picky at all and has almost all his teeth, definitely a full mouth.

I’ve already started thinking about his 2nd birthday party (when I’ve yet to blog about his first one!  Which I will because it was AMAZING!):DSC_0054

I’m thinking paper airplanes or nautical themed.  We shall see… I went a little crazy last year and hope to scale back haha:

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Scary that I’m opening my brain to that once again.  We should probably just go on vacation instead :) lol.

I am so over the moon with my little guy.  Happy Half Birthday To You:

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(thanks for still cuddling <3 )