Where we are…

I’m sitting in my beautiful family room, HGTV providing background noise.  My “Be Peaceful” candle providing the most wonderful calming smell:

 

 

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Evan is snoozing peacefully, after a day of running around with his crazy runny nose – poor guy has a cold.

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Today was a beautiful day.  It started early after a rough night of sleep (I am SUCH a light sleeper).  Evan was just given a “big boy” bed and he kept slamming his head into the wall as he moved around on his new mattress. Each time he stayed asleep but I was alert as ever wondering it he would start crying at any moment. There is SO MUCH going on around us.  Besides prepping for a new baby, we have work stuff going on, friend stuff going on, family stuff going on and home stuff going on.  It is like so crazy.  But as I wait for my teapot to start whistling for my calm tea, I am just crazy grateful.  I’m grateful for my mom who listens to me complain, grateful for my friends who understand me without me needing to explain anything, grateful for the happy healthy baby boy bouncing in my belly, grateful for my husband who still loves me even when I’m a train heading to crazy town. 

Not everything is always sunshine and daisies and we definitely have our share of obstacles we are traversing but we are making it.  Together. 

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I’m feeling the need to nest like NO OTHER.  I want to clean, organize and make everything perfect for Evan, baby, Hector and I (& O).  I just need to find the energy to get things where I want them.  We are hands deep in deciding what other gear we need and I finally (with the help of momma above) picked out our new stroller.  When Evan was born I picked out two strollers Peg Perego’s P3 (I figured would be our light weight stroller and matched my carseat) and the BOB.  I cannot say enough about the BOB I ABSOLUTELY love the BOB, we still use it almost daily – Evan is great in strollers. We used the BOB with him within a few weeks of him being born because we picked up the carseat adapter.  The P3, left something to be desired.  It was expensive and I think I used it once.  It is now with my MIL who watches Evan and I don’t miss it. I just wasn’t feeling it.  It was a great lesson in try it before you buy it.  When we found out we were having another baby I immediately started day dreaming about an UppaBaby stroller it was the stroller I wish I would have bought after I tried and used the P3 and I was going to try to talk Hector into it ;-)  – well this time, I decided before spending 730 *gasp* dollars on a stroller, I wanted to TRY it first.  

OH MY GOODNESS am I GLAD I DID.  My mom, Evan and I went to Buy Buy Baby and tried out the UppaBaby Vista and the Britax B-Ready.  They have very similar features, allow for a kickboard, and rumble seat and have all the configurations I desired. After having Evan play many different roles (I should rent him out as a stroller tester, he was amazing) – my mom and I had a WITHOUT A DOUBT winner:

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the B-Ready was hands down my favorite of the two and for the price, I feel like it is a steal.  Literally the only things I liked better about the uppababy was the black frame and the prettier kickboard – clearly not enough to choose it over the B-Ready that handled better and felt more solid.  I will never again make a big purchase like this without testing ;-) and would recommend big-time to new momma’s who are as crazy about online shopping as I am – sometimes you just need to get to the store and move things around. We’ve already been using this lovely stroller I can’t say I like it more than the BOB, because I don’t but I’m excitied to have a stroller with the versitlity of this one.  We will be buying a couple add on-s first up is the careseat adapter.

One purchase down and only a few more to go.  

Things are piling up around here – and I’m getting anxious to do a load of baby laundry. I have several new boxes of my favorite baby swaddlers that I want to unwrap and get washed. My final box is on the way because I found it at a STEAL of a price ~32 BUCKS!! Hector may kill me because we still have a ton from Evan but I keep reminding him – baby needs baby’s own stuff too & Evan doesn’t like to share yet and will likely think all these new swaddlers are his.  I do almost own the entire bamboo collection hahaha but am IN LOVE with this organic pattern I bought, it is foxy ;-) and I’m eyeing the new circus collection IT’S FUN! But really babe, promise I’m done for now – don’t forget I use them as nursing covers, stroller and carseat covers, to wipe up spit up and layer a bunch together for time in the park… They really are my most used baby item and I’ve blogged about my love for them for two consecutive Thanksgivings!! (haha crazy just realized this) here and here.

I’m still looking for the perfect going home outfit and dresser, and rug and wall decor – so I still have a lot to do and <8 weeks until my due date!  Yikes!

So that is – where we are <3 Sicky is stirring tea is burning… O is wanting a walk so now I get to choose between the two strollers (I’ll ask evan!) and take the boys for a walk. Adios!  Happy Saturday!!

 

Not the Biggest Fan

Well, as my second trimester draws to a close, I thought I’d write a bit about the past 27ish (21 of which I knew I was prego..)weeks.

My. Goodness.  I feel like this pregnancy really is almost the polar opposite of how I felt during my other one.  Sure I was still obsessed with not getting stretch-marks and have had some nervous moments… Last night I tried to remember life with a newbie and was having trouble falling asleep thinking about how I would handle it.  How will Evan be?  He will be in his big boy bed, will I have two babies trying to cuddle at night?  How did I handle burping?  Did I nurse and burp him in the middle of the night.. I don’t remember!? How could I forget these things?  I wonder if Hector would be just as helpful and wonderful as he was the first time.  Does he even know HOW grateful I was for his love and support?  Needless to say I just couldn’t turn my brain off.  Sure the questions weren’t the same but I did have several nervous nights during my first pregnancy… I also think this is totally normal.  So last night I looked at my peacefully snoring husband, took a deep breath and said to myself “Just like you did last time, one day at a time.”  

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How my pregnancy is different with baby 2:

1.  My body.  Hands down, has stretched in different ways.  Overall I’ve gained LESS (from my starting weight, albeit was higher than my starting weight with Evan, I had just done marathon training… and wasn’t as focused on weight training as I was this time around) than with Evan so far, yet things do not fit like they did with Evan.  My hips/thighs have absolutely widened, and they seem fuller even though Hector swears they aren’t (he lies.. haha).  Like Evan, most people are surprised when I tell them how far along I am, yet I feel much larger this time but I think that has to do with what my hips/thighs are doing.  With this, I’ve actually bought a few maternity items this time around which I didn’t do with Evan either.  With Evan I literally was wearing my clothes to work at 40 weeks, likely why I felt so much smaller with him.  This time, not so much.  One thing I must say is maternity wear is so much more comfortable.  *sigh* I don’t think I’ll ever be good at body changes.   This is something I struggle with about 80% of my day and REALLY need to stop.

2. Energy.  I can’t remember exactly how energy worked last time but I am really really really tired… Pretty much all the time.  I don’t know if because I didn’t have a two year old to run around after or a whole house to take care of or WHAT but I’m tired all the time (did I say that yet?).  Doesn’t matter how much sleep I get, what I eat, if I workout… Nothing helps.  I literally get to a point where I’m like “I just need to sit down.”  Last night we were out for a walk and I had to stop at my moms 2/3rds way though for a rest haha.  Could have been because it was 8:30 already but still.  I. am. tired.  

3.  Workouts.  After my major ankle issue, it was like this for about 4 weeks and extremely painful for another few and is actually still healing:

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I never though I’d get back to solid workouts I felt good about.  This injury REALLY REALLY set me back, emotionally and physically.  BUT I HAVE!  I’m actually more active this pregnancy than I was the last one.  My last one I’d do a bit of weights at home and some light workouts but really took it easy, you know go home, jump on your registry watch baby move and go to sleep. :)  Even if my clothes seem to tell me differently.  I just keep trying to remind myself I have to tools to be how I want to be… Just be calm and patient, I am growing a baby.

4.  With Evan, after my disastrous morning sickness first 17ish weeks (I had both times, yay me!) it was over.  I was able to eat super green salads, fresh fruit, and my total clean eats.  This time, I’M STILL SICK!  Ugh, my tummy really just wants toast, something easy on my tummy.  Veggies, are way hit or miss sometimes I’m like “this steamed broccoli tastes amazing” other times, later that day even, I want to GAG looking at it. -_- haha, this is just the way it has been.  Other times, I’m just so overwhelmed with nausea I can’t eat anything at all. So. Strange.  I still buy super clean but I’ve had way more breads/pasta/whole wheat wraps in my diet then as far back as I can remember.  But like with Evan, no real cravings.  

5. Preparing for baby.  By this time with Evan, I’m pretty sure the nursery was pretty much complete and I had a carseat, and all sorts of stuff.  This time, baby is getting spoiled by grandma… and I think my friend Joanna and I are tied on the onesies we have gotten for my baby no-name.  haha.  I do have some thoughts in mind on how I want to do his nursery, super chill and inspiring, but I better get started!

I know I didn’t love being pregnant with Evan.  Don’t get me wrong, I love baby jabs and the warm smiles from people.  I do love when my sister or my mom say that I’m a cute prego, even though I feel anything but… But I’m looking forward to the end.  I’m looking forward to treating myself to a few new pairs of wonder-unders and a cute pair of riding boots.  I look forward to my baby wrapped in the Moby and my sweet Evan hugging my legs.  

What I’m working on:

Better focus.  This very well might be the last time I’m ever pregnant.  IF it is, do I really want to look back and be like “ugh, I was so miserable?” Nope.  That is why I bought another dress for work today and why if I want a piece of chocolate I’ll have it.  It is why tonight I’ll go on a walk with Evan and Oso, and why I’m going to wrap up this post and clean my house.  I’m going to continue to do things that make me happy (clean house = happy camper)… 

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Being thankful.  So far I’ve had a healthy pregnancy.  I need to continue to be focused ON THAT.  I’m lucky, not all pregnancies are this uneventful.  

Happy Sunday!! I hope to be back with some weekly favs <3

 

xoxo

Life, Love, Grow

Hello world.

So much has happened the past few months. Life is  if possible *gasp*even more busy and with all I have to share I’m sure you agree it is just going to become MORE busy.  As I shared in I think my last post, I rolled my ankle prettttttttty good 5/31 and I AM STILL HEALING!  Unreal.  I’m sure, had I gotten a MRI they would find some SERIOUS sprain haha.  I’ve gotten hurt in the past but I swear this recovery has been more brutal than my knee surgery.  A good friend of mine saw my ankle several weeks after I did it and again today and she can STILL see the swelling that annoys me each time I look at my ankle ;-)

Evan is such a toddler, little man.  He is not at all babyish anymore.  Ok, well except for maybe when he sleeps:

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He will be TWO next week!  Exactly a week from tomorrow. As much as I miss baby Evan moments.  Each day, he grows, learns and reminds me to live.  He is such an amazing little man and it is awesome to watch him flourish.  Other things flourishing?

Evan’s birthday party plans:

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My plants (who am I kidding, my WEEDS too ;-) ) :

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My love for my husband:

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*be still my heart*

AND ME!

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Yup.  As much as I wanted to do the coolest post ever reveal.  Here I am today in my 24 week glory ;-)

I still haven’t done a “share with the world” (you know my world,private facebook world) post.  Simply because I want to do something super cute and special.  Who knows,maybe I still will.  But I haven’t documented this pregnancy as much as the last one because I haven’t even publicly shared the news!  Of course friends and family know… hard to hide (especially in the picture above right after a long day of polish food (Thanks Joanna!) and ice cream haha.. what? cheat days after a loved one passes, I swear I’m still a super clean eater 90-95% of the time).  It has probably taken so long for so many reasons all that is going on and I dunno the fact that it has passed thus far at hyper speed even with my day-to-day between raising Evan, working, attempting to work out (foot allowance…) and having a tremendous loss in our family… I’ve been spent!  I will tell you this.  This pregnancy is MUCH different than my last and I hope to speak more on that before this little person *we know the gender… maybe I can do something cool for that?!* joins us around Halloween (Auntie Nicole’s favorite holiday!).  It has been great to share pregnancy woes with my bff who is almost exactly a month a head of me.  She is expecting an early October baby and I’m literally due 10/30 although – and we both share this as well – I have no real belief my baby will show before then.  In fact, I fully expect a November baby whose first holiday will be Thanksgiving.  How appropriate too, because I’m so Thankful.  Thankful for my friends (who have been AMAZINGLY SUPPORTIVE LATELY), my family (seriously… I’d die without them), and my little new growing intimidate under my roof family.  To make Evan a big bro and my husband a second time father?  My heart swells with happiness.

I’ve gotta ton to blog about… I really hope to check in more often.  Now that life is slowly getting back into the swing of things, just in time to get thrown back out.

Love.

Light.

Life.

Grow.

That’s the theme of my life right now.  Off to hit my yoga mat and snuggle with my only child while it is still just him and I (and Oso, who is rattling around downstairs probably getting into trouble…).

 

 

My Weekend – Insert Sadface & Last Weekend In Pictures (5/26)

This weekend was supposed to be really was awesome.  I woke up Saturday morning so happy I thought I could fly.  My husband had told me he was going to get Sunday off (Whaoo!!) and I was all set at 7 a.m. to get my day started with FARMER’S MARKET!  One of my all-time favorite places to go.  It is honestly such an awesome way to start the weekend. Fresh veggies, flowers… the works.  I was especially looking forward to grabbing some herbs and a strawberry plant for Evan’s very own lil garden (a couple pots this year! next year a whole little bed!! If we don’t get to it this year).  I called my mom and was off!  Had a great talk with the hubs and stepped out the front door at 7:30 sharp.

Then BAM! Major accident. I was walking down my front steps with my lulu bag and flip flops and hit an uneven piece of concrete and my loose ligaments in my right ankle gave way!  It was such a scary moment.  I knew immediately that my day was taking a dramatic turn and BOY did it HURT!  I immediately yelled out for Hector in short gasps “Hector. Help. Please hurry.”  It was honestly so terrifying.  Thank God he was home.  As someone who plays sports and has had aches, pains and sprains I knew I needed to get it up and iced as fast as possible.  The pain was so intense I thought I was going to pass out.  I got inside, asked Hector to get me some I ice and give me a phone, I needed to call my mom.  Naturally, I called my mom in tears, likely frightened her and thank God she lives like 3 minutes away because she was there in a flash because within minutes it looked like this:

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A half hour later (with icing and elevating):

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I was over the moon in pain. I never want to go to the hospital with things like this because I knew it wasn’t broken but my mom talked me into it.  I knew the doctor would tell me “It isn’t broken, ice, elevate and take Tylenol” (because I can’t take NSAIDs).  Still around 3’clock because the pain was at an 8 if it wasn’t elevated (and even then the throbbing was awful)… I broke down and went.

To Elmhurst ER we went haha.  They said it wasn’t broken, and to ice, elevate and take Tylenol.  They gave me a fancy aircast and crutches since I really couldn’t put any weight on it whatsoever.  The hardest part of this all was the fact that I had so much planned.  It is tough to watch my weekend fly by when I was literally daydreaming about long walks and sunkissed cheeks and instead I was elevated and icing.  My sweet son had a nice time with Grandma though!!

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I spent my Saturday and Sunday pretty much in bed or on a couch because the minute my foot hit the floor major major pain.

Ah well.  Some weekends just don’t work out the way you planned.  Today it is still painful and turning a lovely shade of purple but I’m hobbling around and hope to be gently hobbling around tomorrow.  As this is my right leg with my crappy knee to begin with the hobbling will likely cause other strange pains so I’m trying to gently stretch in all ways that feel good and aren’t terribly painful.  I’m praying that this heals quickly because my almost two-year-old… as sweet as he is isn’t easy to keep up with on crutches or hobbling.

Here are some pictures of LAST weekend, the weekend I was looking to semi-recreate:

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It is Mommy’s Day!

Two days of blogging in a row.  I must be feeling better!  This morning is absolutely perfect.  I’ve had a hard time sleeping lately so last night I heard a welcomed little rain shower sneak in around 12 a.m. and fell comfortably back to sleep.  I LOVE rainstorms and rain.  Not all the time because I NEED my sunshine, but there is something soothing about the sound of falling rain – had I heard thunder, I would have thought God sent the small storm just for me.

Anyway, I’m an early riser.  I haven’t always been and I love sleep (so I go to bed as early as I can) but I love waking up before the sun and watching the awesome colors in the sky.  Friday morning I woke up way before the sun and it was raining I felt warm and safe in my home but the sound of the falling rain was so peaceful (told you, I love rain).  This morning though, my little sidekick who typically wakes early too withing 15-20 minutes of me being up is still sleeping!  So I went downstairs grabbed a cup of coffee (Nicole! I can drink it again!!!  ;-) ) took the dog out and enjoyed smelling fresh air and taking in the beauty of my yard.

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Hector and I dropped Evan at Grandma Debbie’s yesterday so we could do a few things outside without having to keep an eye on our little guy, he is FAST!  We planted some planters and just enjoyed some time cleaning up some stuff together in our yard.  I also realized I’ve gone a little crazy on the lavender (maybe it isn’t possible, I LOVE LAVENDER) but I have now about 5 different pots with some sort of lavender including this cute pot from Trader Joe’s that is already flowering:

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and took more pictures of our stunning perennials:

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I’m so grateful for what we have, friends, family, a home (with flowers, haha)… Weekends always remind me I am doing exactly what I should be because my life is so filled with love and joy.  Which brings me to today: Mother’s Day.  A day I just like to reflect on what I know:  Motherhood, hands down, is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I should say that I have had a lot of awesome things happen to me, but this definitely takes the cake.  Loving, nurturing and caring for another human being on this level cannot do anything BUT make you a better person.  I’m more efficient and effective, I’m more dedicated (as if that was possible), I weed out the BS because you recognize time is the most precious thing and you do not want to waste it…  NOTHING makes you realize how fast time flies more than a walking time stamp. I do not just manage my life and co-manage Hector’s, I am universe CEO – RESPONSIBLE for another human’s well-being.  It is a full-time job whether you are a stay at home mom, or a working mom we all do it differently.  Each has its own challenges, and I respect every single mother who works to make her child a healthy, loving addition to society.

My mother has been a shining example of everything I want to be to Evan and any future children I may have (:) ) – With that: I LOVE YOU MOM!! You are my rock and my hero.  Until I had Evan, I never understood the depth of your love, it is amazing how our bond has grown now that we share this special title.  I also am proud to be surrounded by my beautiful mommy friends!  Too many to name but I must say:  Joanna!  Happy first Mother’s Day with a baby in your arms, being a mother looks amazing on you and it is a beautiful thing to watch – we love you so much.  Nicole, my other half, happy Mother’s Day with your second little baby happily bouncing in your belly – I’m excited for the upcoming months for so many reasons ;-).  You both are inspiring and I LOVE LOVE LOVE sharing this journey with you.  Jenny, thank you for literally being the person I go though the motions with as our dudes are so close in age, I pray for the day you move closer. Anita!  He’s beautiful!! Happy First Mom’s Day with your little guy!! Jaz, another!! Miggie <3  PS we are like the Boy’s Club right now, all our little gentleman…  To the mom’s in my mommy group <3 sending light and love – watching the support all you wonderful ladies share each day makes me want to hug you all and warms my insides to know just how many amazing moms there are out there.

I hope everyone takes some time to just take in all the beauty around us and has a peaceful moment today.  XOXO

Evan, yesterday, at our favorite spot:

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Weekend Warriors

Yesterday, was quite possibly my favorite day so far this year as far as weather is concerned. It is pretty awesome how the warm breeze and sunshine can instantly make you grateful for all that’s around you.  It was a great way to end the week.  I left work, ran home to my favorite dudes and we had an early Mother’s Day dinner with my Mother in Law and my brother and sister-in-law.  I’ve known these people for such a huge part of my life, it is nice to catch up and chat over food haha.

Before we left the house I was in awe of how quickly our gardens went from not happy to green and flowering so I snapped a few pictures.  Our backyard is turning into the magical wonderland I was dreaming about all winter.  We must have 5 different kinds of Daffodils in our garden.  They are so beautiful AND double what they were last year which leads me to my next big idea…

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I want to be a bigger gardener this year.  Cultivate this hobby, if you will.  We have some plans to create a raised garden to share with Evan the magic of fresh berries, greens, veggies and herbs from our own garden this year.  I think it will be a great learning experience for us all.  We don’t have a large garden but I think we have the perfect super sunlit place to create a fresh garden that we can expand on every year.  We MAY try to tackle this this weekend because my hubby has some time off. yay!!!  There is something therapeutic about being in the garden and I love that with some TLC you can see some amazing results.

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We are getting a lot of work done around the house, or at least getting prices so we can fix some things that we really wanted to improve/replace.  Including a fence to protect Oso and little Evan.  I think it is going to be gorgeous addition to our home and can’t wait for it to go up.  *fingers crossed* we get a better quote from a very high rated place I’ve found.

Owning our home has definitely made us weekend warriors when we are home together.  We are always tackling something home related it seems, but the rewards are great and we are filling our lives with so many memories.  It is a really great time in our lives and I’ve been working towards writing down all the wonderful things that are happening around us because it is easy to let the negative things slide in and take too much of your energy away from what matters:  love, family, health (oh and my garden, haha).  Can’t wait to show you blooming pictures of our magical tree in the backyard!!! It will likely bloom today or tomorrow a perfect Mother’s Day gift you can see the start of the beautiful flowers:

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With that we are off to a doctor’s appointment and maybe brunch.  Followed by shopping… Seems like trips to Home Depot and Menards are a weekly occurrence ;-)

 

 

 

 

Favorite Coffee Cup & Why I Need to Live Somewhere Warm

Anyone have a favorite coffee cup?  I do. I do. I do.  I irrationally love this cup.

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I have two others just like it except the color inside is different and so is the logo on the front of the cup, it has to be the bear (Yukon blend).  It’s the perfect size, perfect texture (matte), great handle… Well made!   I don’t know what it is but when someone else uses my cup I have an inside irrational response of *gasp* “MINE” lol.  Luckily unlike my one and half year old, I don’t scream “Mine Mine” at the person using the cup, but I do practically hug it the next time it is in my hands.

So this morning is a good morning, my computer, Lorde Pandora, and my cup <3

I’ve always been a person who has worked on ways to make myself and the things around me better.  My newest endeavor?  Waking up really early everyday of the week.  My alarm goes off around 4:30 a.m.  problem is, I use the cold as an excuse to cuddle under my covers for the next half hour.  Then when I head to the treadmill it is cold down there!  This weather hates me, and the rest of Chicago.  I literally sit here and day dream about morning runs outside with my early morning companion, Oso:

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I just keep telling myself:  It’s coming. It’s coming.

But, to avoid this crap in the future.  I should just move somewhere warm! :) hehe.

No, on the bright side, I’m crazy blessed and lucky to have the option of running on a tredmill at my gym or in my home.  I just can’t wait until the snow and ice melts so I can run the early morning streets of my neighborhood. (Trust me, Oso can’t wait either!)

Happy Tuesday!